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- February 19, 2013
Thirty
I find myself thrust into an abyss of arid non-happenings when reminiscing your past year. As if on cue, the left brain began its defensive and reactionary search for applause-worthy items in theAchievements compartment. To be fair, you did have some splendid moments, and the result card yields not hearty sighs. But you seemed to […]
- February 19, 2012
Twenty Nine
You’ve had a hell of a year. An introspective summary would reveal a messy graph, the peaks and valleys fluctuating unpredictably and to asynchronous frequencies. Somewhere in between your serial conquests and breathless finales, there were surreptitious glimpses of doubtful pauses. Concocting that magic cocktail of fun and pain is a skill which you have […]
- January 27, 2012
Something Good
Today we promise each other forever. A part of me still refuses to believe this is actually happening. Especially not to me, the guardian of cynicism and antithesis of ceremonial romance. Love is an arcane and impossible language. Like plucking feather from thin air, like smelling roses in a desert, like galloping on unicorns, like […]
- November 21, 2011
Starting Up
I have no idea how this story is suppose to begin, in which way it will unfold and how it will end. All I know is I need to write this down, despite the fatigue, anxiety, stress and most of all, fear. I started a company with Glenn and two other friends (S and K). […]
- August 10, 2011
Ruffling
Have you ever faced an invisible wall? That’s how I feel now. Confinement. Constraints. Restrictions. Invisible because they are all in my head. Trapped in a hypothetical space shoddily built upon some flimsy but stubborn and evasive tissues and transported by erratic neurons. All the toughest decisions in life, all my ponderings and agony. You […]
- July 19, 2011
The Universal Equation
Besides a few constants in life, I have always thought that change is good. But I have never considered the possibility of fate and chance outwitting my meticulous calculations. And lately I have come to realise that, stripped down to its barest, life is really just about parameters. We are all going to die. What […]
- March 2, 2011
Open Closure
The truth is, sometimes when I think of you, I still feel sadness. It’s not the bawl-your-eyes out kind of sad, but more of a tugging pain, or numb melancholy. The other day I chanced upon (how these things manifest themselves in the sneakiest way, I will never know) the song that I wrote for […]
- February 19, 2011
Twenty Eight
And you sat there. The cliff overlooking a sea of could-be’s and would-be’s, and you ponder in bewilderment the scarcity of the choices you are confronted with. Kuhn would call this a paradigm shift, something revolutionary should be in sight. But what is soul rattling to you is the improbability of narrowing it down to […]
- February 17, 2011
Roaming Rome
I’ve always found Italy enchanting. Rome was no exception. It is a city built around history, literally and metaphorically. The colosseum is built right smack in the middle of a busy street. There are no barricades, no mountains, no ocean nor 354 security checks separating this magnificent piece of art from its people. Art. Everything […]
- February 17, 2011
Anti Denial
2011 Resolution #4: At least 2 blogposts a week. There are two kinds of fatigue. The first one, the one that you feel in your muscle, is fairly simple and has an almost fool-proof remedy – you sleep it off. But the second kind, the one that invades your consciousness, drills into your mind and […]