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- December 31, 2009
Make-up
Somewhere in between my third gum of the day and second eyeliner touch-up I decided to let it go. The game is getting confusing and I am bored. The murmuring lips scream for a color so red, I should have seen all the warning signs. There was nothing innocent about the breakfast invitation, I dissected the […]
- December 25, 2009
Silent Night
On a night like this, when everything is quiet when it shouldn´t be, I wonder if somewhere beyond the vast abyss there is a parallel universe where habitual chaos transcribes into tranquil lucidity. The traffic outside my window, the clicking of the mouse and the warmth of the laptop against my lap seem all too […]
- December 24, 2009
Filler
I know that I said before that I would like to write more on this space, but so far I haven’t been keeping my promise very well huh have I. The thing is, the more I want to write, the harder it seems for me to really put thoughts into words. God knows how many […]
- October 4, 2009
Two Dead Plants
I removed a dead plant from my room today. A month ago I threw away another dead plant which was a gift from a very good friend. Two dead plants in two months, what does that say about me? To put it simply, I’m exhausted. Between a day job, playing in two bands, a club […]
- August 3, 2009
R-rated
“The branch here, you see? The big one piercing right through the middle of the umbrella, this is the root…” He indicated with his pen on the monitor screen, pointing at the 3D diagram which is supposed to be a representation of the state space transitions, but looked suspiciously to me like a certain male […]
- July 20, 2009
Light Bulbs
I’m so accustomed to dealing with people the way I want to be dealt with, that I sometimes forget that people are different. They have different expectations and different reactions as I do, and it catches me off guard when I end up being a disappointment rather than the considerate soul that I hope to […]
- June 14, 2009
Unrelated Subtitles
Blogging Someone once told me people who blog are consciously or subconsciously an exhibitionist. The need to write and share all (un)important details of your (in)significant life and thoughts with the world is, when you think of it, not so different from flashing strangers on the streets. I don’t disagree with this. But I realise […]
- April 23, 2009
Offsetting
The vulgarity of it all was intoxicating. Another swing and perhaps she will let go, another twirl and perhaps she will dive. It was like stringing marshmallows on a scorching rope. She was all set to cut the fine line with her burning tongue. The stroboscopic lights distracted her enough to feign gullibility. The clamorous […]
- March 26, 2009
The Feet I Stand On
I think it was two years ago. The feelings have blurred along with the distorted wholeness of my memory of it, but I remember the foot rub. In the midst of extreme fatigue and the heavy weight on my shoulders from being the single director and possibly the only sane one left after that nights […]
- March 5, 2009
Not Per Se
I have a default feeling. I remember when I was younger, like 13 or 14, my default feeling was one of an intense red. I felt everything with a magnifying glass and most of the time I was on a natural high of delirium. And then there was 15 where my default feeling was dark. […]
- February 19, 2009
Twenty Six
The truth is, one day you wake up and realize your life is on autopilot. And it has been so for a long time. It seems like somewhere in your sleep you left behind that restless disobedience and decided it was time to let some clichéd world-weariness set in. What was nothing more than a […]
- February 15, 2009
The One With The Snail
Her: Tell me a joke. Ask me something. Him: The snail is driving a car with a big ‘S’ on it, why? Her: Easy. Because the snail is Slow! Him: Nope. Because the snail wants to see the *Esss-Car-Go I laughed and looked at him, bewildered and amused. Perhaps you’d understand my amazement if you […]